As a young girl I attended Sunday School on a regular basis. One of the songs I learned in church was called, “This Little Light of Mine.” Here is the link to a video in case you haven’t heard it. https://youtu.be/yRhDi2aK5ac. I used to sing it all the time. If you just listened to the video, now I’m sure you’ll be singing it now as well. The song is about letting your light shine for the world . Don’t let the world blow your light out, rejoice and always be delightful. We were taught to be forgiving and to never show anger. As a child, you might not have been allowed to have disagreements with your parents and siblings. You might have been stopped before you could get your feelings off your chest.
This way of living as a child may have brought serious consequences as an adult. Maybe you had trouble saying no to others when they asked you to do something. Maybe you thought you had to be perfect and needed approval from those around you. If you didn’t get the approval, you might have felt like a complete failure.
Does any of this sound familiar? Dealing with failures in life is a difficult process to overcome. Sometimes it’s really hard to dig deep within yourself to find that small flicker of light. We must learn to accept what cannot change and move on with new experiences. It’s hard.
I’m finding my light within me during this stay-at=home order by our governor. My son is home from college taking his courses online. I am so thankful for this time we are spending together. When he is struggling in Calc 2, I try to give him some positive vibes to help him deal with it. He does the same for me if I’m struggling. We have been getting along better than ever. I will be sad to see it end and I know he will soon move on. But for now, we are shinning our light on each other.