Teach was the word of the day. I was really struggling on what to write about the word teach, because it brings many painful feelings. Not feelings about past teachers I’ve had. I was blessed with many wonderful teachers along the way. I even decided that teaching was my calling in life. It hasn’t exactly panned out the way I wished. That is where the pain resides.
Finally, I have decided to write about what social isolation has taught me. Tomorrow is the month mark of when our governor has placed the stay-at-home order.
My first reaction was unbelief. I was not able to work and have income. Our tax rebate was in my checking account, so I knew I would be able to pay my share of the bills for a month or two. I have been very blessed that my husband is still working.
Next, I was enjoying the time home. It’s been great spending time with my son. I’ve been cooking more than I have in years.
I began to convert back into my introverted ways. I was thinking that I didn’t need to deal with any people at all. I thought I was okay…
My family of 3 had a nice day at home yesterday on Easter. We had a delicious meal. I was allowed to pick out one movie and my husband sat and watched it with me.
Then today happened. I began to struggle.
I decided I needed some contact with friends. I set up a zoom meeting and invited 4 friends. Unfortunately one gal was not able to attend.
I called the meeting “Happy Hour”. I told everyone to grab the beverage of their choice and join in at 3:30. It was closer to 4 by the time everyone was able to log in. But now we all know how it works and we’re going to try again in a few days. It was a pretty nice time.
So, as I sat down typing out this article, it has hit me that I am ready for this isolation to be over. I miss talking to people. But I am going to change a few things. I am going to be myself. I’m not going to be the person other people want me to be. I’m just going to be me. That is what I have learned.
